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GOD Speaks

God Speaks
    To you in a way
    Only you can know
    It is He
    Open your eyes to see.

If He knows you better than you
How can it not be
That it is He speaking to you
Through me
Or she
Maybe even he.

God reaches
    Out to you in a special way
    Just for you
    To make your day.

Wanting you to know Him
Beyond what you think you do.
Wanting you to ask Him
Not expect him to just do
With or without you.

God touches
    In faces, places
    Names and games
    Until your attention he finally gains.

He gives you flowers
Inspires in you power
Or makes it rain for just that hour.
The true reality
We walk through callously.

God is
    Here, there and everywhere.
    He never leaves
    Even when we are scared.

So when you need Him
Call or shout,
He is
Always about

As you need Him
    Open your soul,
    Let Him be the one to close the door.      15/5/09

I See The World (part 1)

I see people and the burdens they carry.
In their eyes
are tears they can no longer cry.
Their mouths fixed slightly apart
by fears and screams
that should never depart.
Lest they awaken dreams
Monsters and demons it seems.


I see people and the pain they cannot let go of.
Like wounded dogs
they keep licking
raw
their torments still seeping
hoping for healing
trying
avoiding infections – rejections – dejections.


I see the family living in fear.
The child who never sheds a tear
torn between two worlds
the pretend outside
the decay inside


I see too
those who are healing
picking up the shattered pieces
memories of an existence gone by.
Reshaping the puzzle
They look to the sky
thank God they are alive
then reach out
touching someone else's life.

    22/4/09

How to behave the adult when your mind is still a child

23 I woke up,
Not another year of life.
Yet again there seems to be no instructions.
23 life with not luck.
Reality sucks
24 in just two months
Lord i don't think i want

23 crawling out of bed
Lost what i could have called home
Too old to go back alone
Empty handed And
Time won't wait for you any more
To merge and grow
to get unstuck

23 my feet not touching the ground
Wishing I could rewind time
Or at least pause it for a while
I’d relive every moment
With more thought, care and drive.
Living and cherishing
The good and best memories
Lord knows how few and far between they are.
Every kind word, every smile,
Every hope, every dream
Everyone I’ve left behind.

23 looking in the mirror
It's still me
No confidence to work with
Hugging tight my broken losses
Too afraid to let go of a failed past
Rapidly losing hope in dimly light future

23 wash your face and self hate
Here i stand with nothing left to bear
How did i get here?
When did i grow to here?
Mind set on 18 - how do become the adult
The child in me is too afraid to let go?

23 colgate teeth and a colgate smile
No longer fooling anyone
Not even me
Hoping this is the last day until the intrustions come
Till then hugging and waiting

23 and out the door you go
Time still frozen in my mind
With me examining the roads in my life
Like a scientist in element exploring the theories of life
Everything dissected
Throw away what hurts me
Hold dear what would help me grow
Rebuilding myself
Preparing for 24.